and then i went for a walk.... no-one will bloom on your behalf

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This afternoon I started to feel a bit low. A bit of a slump. I looked around at all the things I should have been doing (already done) like the washing up or vacuuming the floor, or planning what we would have for dinner....
And overthinking how I felt about how things I put out there were responded to. 

Yep, that's not a good one is it. Sometimes overthinking can be good, but often I think it just leads to a bit feeling blurgh. 

But it does make me feel heart sad when I put things 'out there' and don't get the reaction, response or results that I'd hoped or expected. I try hard to chin up and stay positive, but this grey cloud sky day wasn't helping. 

So... I went for a walk. It has given me some fresh air and a lighter step.

This peach tree that was washed out of root structure earlier in the year, and we had to cut it off the path way. Look at it - it's still producing flowers. Wow. This thing has been literally washed out of the ground and had a saw at it and it's still doing it's best to do what it needs to do. That's inspiring isn't it. 

This orange tree is growing in quite a compromised spot, with low sunlight and lots of moss covering it's branches. Still it's producing fruits that soon we'll be able to eat and enjoy. 

This beautiful dahlia plant was growing gloriously on the edge of a house site. The whole house burnt down a few months ago, and the whole garden has been removed / bulldozed, except this plant blooming on and on... 

So, I came to the thought that :

Despite obstacles, one must keep trying,
Because no-one else will bloom 
or flourish on your behalf.

That's it. That's all for today. Just my little feeling a bit blurgh and low and wishing things sometimes weren't as hard as they are. And that sometimes when I put something out there it goes bang bang, and boom boom. And all the hard work and effort and energy pays off. Sometimes it does. Sometimes it doesn't. That's life I guess... isn't it. 

Happy Monday friends xxx

{ps - you can book a spot in our upcoming workshop gather :: create and find your own way of blooming. Booking details are here.}

primivera // a Spring jasmine crown and a forest fairy

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Happy Spring! 
We found the jasmine flowering behind the water tank. She said, can we make a crown. Of course of course. A Spring crown for my little forest fairy. Welcoming Spring. With her smile. 

I couldn't choose just one favourite from the 200-odd photos that I took. We were chasing the last of the afternoon light, but the garden looks glowing and glorious in the last days of Winter when we shot these. 

Jasmine makes me think of our wedding day. Last week we celebrated our nine year wedding anniversary. Our flower girl, so young back then, wore jasmine in her hair and twirled around her flower basket. We cut the flowers from the house up the road from where we were living at the time. I'm so glad there's jasmine here now, on this land. That my mum planted it, despite it being a bad weed that will want to creep over everything, it hasn't been too bad in the years since it was planted. It's good to have that perfume of jasmine mingling with citrus blossoms filling the air. 

If you are welcoming Autumn, I hope it's lovely watching the leaves change colour and fall and scatter on the ground. The blossoms aren't last long here, it seems Spring will be fleeting and Summer will be upon us before we know it. Right now, I am soaking up every single moment of early Spring flowers as I can. Check out my IG feed, there seems to be a flower every second photo!

an under the lemon tree list

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I am one of those people who wants things to happen. And dreams about it happening. But doesn't really put the planning into how to make it happen. Hmmmm - sometimes it (whatever this


is I'm talking about?) happens on it's own, mostly it just doesn't happen.

So, with the year already half gone and disappeared, I've decided now is a good a time as any to change 35 years of training to be a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants type girl. AND MAKE SOME PLANS!

You don't really want to hear them all. Plans are plans. But some, can I share some? Here goes:

+ garden. Get it happening and growing again. It was such a beautiful and nourishing place for me to be, and so good to gather our dinner ingredients and share country goodness with our city family.

+ learn my big (expensive) camera. How to make it work to it's best. Often times I'm finding my photos are massive file sizes, but fuzzy resolution. So disappointing. 

+ spend more time using my real real (film) camera. Is it even possible to get film anymore?

+ dedicate time for connecting and gathering with other creatives. Monthly? Is that too often? 

+ Write that big list of jobs around the house and land and make them happen. 

+ have more photos taken of me, with my family. Be happy with the photos taken of me (that's a hard one sometimes.. any excellent "make-me-look-better-than-a-model" type of photographers out there?).

+ baking and cooking :: bread, wholesome sweets for my little ones, overcoming my "irrational fear" of preserving and canning.

+ weekly dedicated planned crafting / making time with my little ones. 

+ more walking on and around our land. Exploring time and time again. 

Ah. That's a few for now. Good to start with giant leaps isn't it. Just do it all at once, no baby steps or anything. Yep. Life solved. Go forth and be fantastic now that I have my list. Uh Huh!?

How are you at list making? 

Do you make and follow? 

Or make a list of the things you've already done, so you can cross that off?

Here's to an excellent, exciting, exploring, enticing week for you all. xxx

{oh, and I think I

just realised

the lemon tree significance - ok, I must make lemonade or maybe lemon curd or preserved lemons out of life}.